Yes, the unknown God?  How could I know you? Is my mind ready or it should by my heart?

Life has been for me very organized, with schedules, programmes, plans. . . As middle-aged, I needed to organize life, make myself more calm and sober since blood pressure rises when agitation of the unexpected comes, tension increases and much energy is lost.  Organization seems to be the only solution.  I am the boss of my life: prepared talks, well planned strategy to make a point but it does really help me to know this unknown God?

Love is a freedom of spirit.  It is not enchained with schedules and programs.  We do not know where it blows, its inspiration, its likes and dislikes, its inner summons and voices. 

Now, in these past week, I began to understand, that I need to listen to this internal voice, call it what you like: conscience, syntheresis, the voice of good and evil.  But I call it simply common sense.  It is to listen to those who listen to me so that I will discern what to give.  It is to listen to the voice of the spirit, where it is leading us so that I could pray for guidance to traverse that decided path.  It is to listen in order to help better.  Yet I realized it is in loving that I could really listen.

I undertand, that this realm is beyond schedules and programmes.  Only when I loosed my plans did I begin to be open to this unknown God.  I was the one blocking Him.  It is only when I began to loose my prepared talks, topics my schedules, my programmes: that by loving the others I see the beauty of this adventure with the unknown God who is beginning to reveal himself not as Someone unknown but someone who guides, who is a gentle and sweet voice.  He liberates, He refreshes, He destroys and builds at the same time my being, He brings communion amongs us.

Oh,  yes, how late have I appreciate you!  If only I could immerse my being into yours, then perhaps, You, Holy Spirit will be my guide for always.

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